…Are often laid to waste by croupy babies, shrieking toddlers, and a house so filthy it can barely be recognized as ‘indoors’ as opposed to, I don’t know, the back alley behind a dry cleaner’s and a deli.
There are boxes of c-r-a-p everywhere. Someone came by and bought all our dressers on Monday night, so there are piles of clothes all over the place, too. I meant to do something about it during naptime yesterday, but instead I crouched in my disheveled bed amidst a pile of (clean? dirty?) laundry and watched the latest episode of Parenthood.
And it was good. Dammit, Grace, it was good. You were spot on. And I don’t have time for that right now.
I have like a million billion pages of lists for world domination that are scattered about the shanty, but most days all I manage to do is keep the children alive, (yesterday, just barely though. Never, ever take a toddler to have their blood drawn. Insist upon leeches or some other more civilized means of extraction.) get dinner
made ordered, and whale around on the treadmill or rowing machine while I sweat bullets over the looming specter of no gym (read: no kid’s club.)
We need visas. We need a plane ticket for my little sister, aka our temporary nanny for the first two months. We need longer term housing in Rome. We need like, 7 large suitcases and many, many more Tide To Go pens to fill them with. We need 6 months worth of prescriptions, another suit for Dave, piles of linens and towels to be vacuum sealed and magically shrunken down for easy transport. We need to sell the entire rest of our house and then, somehow, still live in it for another 5 weeks.
And my in-laws are coming for Christmas. And bringing the college kids. Indoor family camping trip, anyone?
I know this sounds like the worst kind of entitled whining, and I don’t mean for it to. I am just fricking freaking out a teeny bit, and wondering how this is all going to come together. Plus, I normally garner a lot of peace and confidence from having an orderly, comfortable home to dwell in. When the outside of my world looks like chaos, the inside feels about the same.
So I guess the lesson in all this is,
drink more wine, watch more reality tv, spend more time in prayer. Because while I feel completely out of control these days, the only thing that has really changed is the illusion of control. I no longer gotz it.
Game on, Advent. We’re ready for you.
And as an added bonus, this year we will be celebrating Christmas in an actual stable.