.- Marta Lozano is the courageous author of, âA Story About Abuse and Homosexuality,â a book in which she recounts her own life and how she regained peace after struggling for years with her own homosexual tendencies. She shared her testimony in an exclusive interview with CNA.
Lozano said she decided to write the book to âhelp those who live tormented by a feeling of shame and/or guilt, who feel excluded or different, either because they have been victims of physical or psychological violence or because they have experienced a homosexual attraction which they neither sought nor desired.â
In her case, âit was the unbearable pain and profound unease that led me to ask for help. I could have channeled this pain in a different way, for example, by falling into deep bitterness or trying to harm others or myself, but luckily that didnât happen. The only thing I regret is not having begun this journey sooner, since shame and loneliness are demolition machines that destroy you inside and isolate you from the world,â she said.
âThank God, my life has changed radically in these last few years,â Marta continued. âBefore I just didnât feel like a woman. Now, I totally identify with the feminine sex and above all, I feel much happier with myself, more reassured and more at peace inside. My social and personal life has also changed substantially. Now I feel happier and freer, I can relate more and better with people. At work I am more satisfied and I look forward to my future,â she added.
Lozano had some words for those who going through experiences similar to hers: âNo matter what you have gone through, experienced or felt, you are not the only person who has gone through this. Even though you may feel overcome by profound sorrow or sadness, even though you feel alone, guilty or embarrassed, your life can change. But for that to happen you must open your heart and seek help,â she said.